Sometimes in life a phase comes when one will feel that this phase is the worst phase in my life. But when one will share his/her feelings with his/her closed kins they will tell you one thing move ahead in life and this phase will not be your worst phase, you haven't seen anything yet. In a single sentence, a complete melodrama of Bengali cinema will be revealed in front you. And you will just have to watch with a face similar to the number of Bengali 5 and in mind will question yourself what I have done? Are they trying to cheer me up or they are keen to make me feel more down?
I really don't have the answer. May be those who are following or reading my blog will also not have it.
But why they will behave in this way? Do they do those thing un-intentionally or knowingly that this help to cheer him/her up or in their unconscious they can see their own such phase?
I am going through such a phase like this. I have already gone through such a phase and so I am a experienced viewer of such a intellectual melodrama and so for this time I have made up my mind whatever will happen but I will not open up my mind this time to any body? Because I am not at all ready to view the cinema that I have seen after my class 12 results again and in fact no remake of it also.
Just completed my B.Tech, already placed in a MNC company where the joining is in next year. So, have nothing to do, getting more than two square meal from dad's hotel at free of cost and thinking from heaven to hell. And, more frustu blog is sure in my pipeline to get published.
Pratik warning: Readers beware of reading my frustu blog. If your health gets detoriated after reading my blog I am not going to take any responsibility.
Dear Piyalli,
The time has arrived for me to write something about you. It has been long three years that we met each other over net. Actually I found you over Orkut and then we switched over to yahoo messenger for security reasons. Jokes apart. I am still wondering while writing this blog that how three years had elapsed so early. I can still remember the first day of our chatting when I found you quite introvert and was not ready to open up your mind to a stranger like me at that time. But latter everything has changed. Both of us just opened up to each other and with in a few chat sessions we became very close friends and dear ones to each other. We used to chat at night and continue our chatting till late night, sometimes the clock may even struck 3 a.m. but still we are in no mood to end the chat session. But then we have to leave for a better chat session next day as we don't want to get banged by our parents. As the problem is more on your side as your parents till date don't know that you chat online. Great talent yaar to keep this thing secret. Kudos to you.
My didi always remain tensed about our relationship and I have to face many embrassing and uncomfortable questions about you from her side. But I feel she never believed me with those answers, may be this time she will believe me. I can assure you my friend she will deny the allegations. Moreover, you always remain my complain box about my didi. When I am angry with her or not in good relations with her I always share those things you and may be sometimes you felt bored but never told me about it. I don't know with whom I can share those things now.
Three years is a long time. During this three years I have completed my graduations, got my job and you have completed your graduation and now going to Delhi to get your Master's Degree. It is true that most of the time during our chat we chat with out any logic, simply just "Bhaa(n)t" but it always remains a stress buster for both us. We know each other's past and share all our happiness and sorrow as a friend normally does. We are more than a virtuall friend whom I will really miss. May be we both us will get busy in our respective life, may be we will not get enough common time to continue chatting like this past three years but the expereince of this chat session will always be in my mind and I will carry this in my heart till my death. May be I will come across with new friends in my future life but you will always remain a special friend in my life. You know everything about me. I must admit today that you are the first friend in my life who is a girl. I cannot detail all our spicy chat sessions, the way we communicate with each other, the way we flirt with each other, the way we call each other as that will surely lead to some trouble some relationship with both of our life partners. Let it be mystry to them. Because we believe each other, we never felt that we are doing any thing wrong and so we are not answerable to them. It is not possible for me to write any thing more with this kind of emotions. Because in my future I lost many dear ones and was emerged in more sorrowness. But this is the first time that I am lossing some body and still I am loving it because you are going for a higher study and that will surely do immense good in your career. We don't meet with each other face to face and I don't think that has hampered our relationships. May be thirty years down the lane we will cross each other in some unknown place in the world and that night we again logged in ym and started our chatting. That will surely be a great exprience. Because I firmly beleive that our friendship can not end in this manner.
It is quite often that you will find some great friendships in television and cinema but that can also happen in real life. I don't beleive in this before our friendship. Really friendship is something special. I cannot write no more as it is not possible for me to write in this time. Will miss you a lot.
Your's ever,
Pratik.
I am writing this letter in this popular medium to wish you " Happy Birthday". It has been quite some time that you came in this beautiful world by making the heaven to cry for losing one of her most beautiful children. Your birth accompanied with lots of happiness not only for your parents but also those who really care for you. I was not around you there, not even at the time of your growing years when you turned from a sweet teenage girl to a mature human being. But I can say without hesitations that those days in your life were full of happiness. May be sorrow came to obstruct your path, but you overcame it with your cheerful and never say die attitude. You had came a long distance in your life without my knowledge.
Most of the things you did in your life didn't follow any track and following the same tradition I came across you in Orkut. And from that day onwards you had fulfilled the void created being a single child of my parents. The day was 5th March 2007 and from that day onwards didn't search anybody share any feelings of my heart when I want to. You came in my life when I was really going through a hard time but you not only pulled me out of the situation but also never allowed me to be in such situations any more.
You are more than just these four words "DIDI". May be these four words have some lexical meanings but for me I don't have any words that can replace it. You are busy in your life, may be you cannot give me the time that you intend to give but that never affects my affection,faith and trust towards you. When in such a strange relationship, if things are present in right proportion does practical world can hamper that relation? The answer is No. I do not know even you also, what the future holds for us but I will never forget you. May be we do not have communication for many years but I can bet with all the pennies that I will earn in my life that if I call you, you will respond me and also pamper me with the special name with which you call me. Sometimes I get annoyed with you for your not responding my calls but your affections turn those into more trust towards you.
You may have received millions of gifts, may be more valuable than this, may be more attractive, may be more decorative, may be with more towards your likings. May this gift will not find a place in that list but as a unemployed brother I don't have anything to give you at this time. When I get employed I will surely try to give you something which will be more costly than this but I seriously doubt whether that will contain the same amount of feelings of me. The choice is yours.
Till then "Many Many Happy Returns of the Day"
Yours forever,
Bicchu.
