A Comet's Voyage

In your life sometimes a day passes in which all things goes in your favour but still you fell down and out. The last day of my life is like that. My favourite team Mohun Bagan beat arch rival East Bengal and enter the Federation Cup final for a record 17th time. I thoroughly enjoyed the match and celebrated well with my friends but still my mood was not turned on. I don’t know why? In other days I will jump and punch in the air like a kid of 16. Though I still believe that I am a kid by heart.
When I sit down to find why I am so feeling alone and down today I only come across the following points. Firstly, the economic meltdown is really taking toll on my life. Some may wonder how such a global cause can be an effect on an individual like me? Yes, you are right. I have nothing to do with that but my future life is very much dependent on that issue. And most importantly joining private concern is my personal decision and I firmly believe that I can do well in that. But my parents are opposing it and forcing me to sit in government service job. I really love my mother and I can do anything for her but ma when you will have faith on me?
Yes, I admit once upon a time I had done a terrible mistake but believe me I will not repeat that again. Please have some faith on me …please…please….
Secondly, sometimes the urge of expectation within our self becomes very demanding. Dreaming is a very good thing but it becomes better when you can execute that dream. I have some personal goal which I really want to execute and I am confident enough to do that. But what will happen if a I fail to do that? That thinking is really hurting. I know it is a pessimistic thought but at the end of the day every one is human being, everybody fears of losing. I also feel the same way. I want to come out of this but not finding the way to come out of it.
I am too much tired to write any more. One line is really coming across my mind…..
“Miles to go before I sleep….”