I am going to write today about those days which give my life a new direction. May be it was not intended but I am really happy now and also want to be get leg pulled by my peers about those incidents. Those who don’t know me let me tell me I am telling about my higher secondary’s days.
I was an average student and just accumulated about eighty-five percent marks in my madhyamik examination. As I felt to satisfy my mother’s target, I was little disappointed. And thought I should try to full fill my mother’s next target of being a doctor. With this aim in mind I started reading my higher secondary studies. But all got messed up in the middle and I eventually turned out to be an engineering student. That story I am going to unfold in this blog. Though me, my mother and my didi knows about the whole story but I am ready to disclose this in front of the whole world.
To have a better understanding about the story, let flash back to my class 9-10 school days. In those days, I had the first crush on a girl whose family rented one of our rooms for studies. She was a good student no doubt but was little restless and also believes that she is better than me. At first I don’t like her attitude. I thought she was self centered and don’t have any interest on opposite sex. But all things got changed when my best friend proposed her and she accepted it. But it is true I don’t have any feelings of losing her because at that time I don’t utter a single word with her.
Now I have to tell something about my best friend otherwise all of you will not able to maintain the flow of the story. We are both friends from our birth and we do all naughty things together in our locality. He is eccentric, adventurous, daring and above all a big heart which is rarely found in this time. We just rocked when we come together and every one in our locality, schools and private tutors know about this. As he is not so much good in his study so our private tutors sometimes give me responsibility to do his homework. I really enjoyed teaching him and he becomes completely changed when I teach him. He is so good to be described.
Now he proposed that girl and for the sake of his future I thought I should make friendship with her. And friends she will be my first friend who will be girl. I found out that she is ambitious, cool and had loads of interest on astronomy and as I have interest on that subject also, so we become good friends together. She used to hide and see me from her room which is opposite to my study room and tried to show me that she is ignoring me. I on the other do all things to make her angry like seeing straight in to her eyes, through stones to their pet dogs. But all those things happened before our friendship. After that we had healthy competitions in studies and eventually I became the winner as she got two marks less in madhyamik. So, friends have a clap for me please………..
Thank you….
But my feelings for her changed after that. I wanted to spend quality times with her and used to take those routes through which she goes to go to her private tuitions. But my best friends were unaware about those. Though I am a late riser but to see her, I changed my English tuition in the morning and used to go out of my house 30 minutes early to have a glimpse of her though it will take only five minutes to reach my teacher’s house. One such fine morning she told me that she only accepted my best friend’s proposal only to teach him a listen. I was shocked and when I convey this message to him, he just ignored and went on with her and stopped talking with me. We don’t even speak for six months but after that they had a spat and I got my friends back and was very happy.
In the meantime time our friendship grew stronger and I used to leave my room early to talk with her and she was studying with me in two coaching classes I was getting close to her more and more. But I never conveyed my feelings to her and I don’t even know whether she knows my feelings or not. She always want to be an engineer and I also forgot my mother’s dream and started neglecting my biology studies but also not practicing mathematics enough. But I always dreamt to study with her in same engineering college. All those negligence turned out to be havoc on me and got poor marks in higher secondary and even a telephone like rank in my JEE. At that I was in hell like, naturally my parents were upset and they told me anything and I just listened to them. Because I had nothing to say against them. To make the situation more badly I lost contact with her. I forgot to tell you, that in order to keep in touch with her I bought a mobile set on class XI against my parent’s desire. So they cannot be blamed for their scolding. I made my mind to commit suicide. As my mother is a good friend of me, she actually knows all of this before though I though she never comes out of house but that’s why they are called mother. She said me that yes you have made a big mistake, but it is you who can overturn it. Those words of her are still in my heart and she restrained me from participating the 1st councelling. And I got admitted in a college with physics honors. I got my ground. Though from that time I realized I am in love with that girl but we don’t have any contact.
May be ‘The All-Might’ have some mercy on me and for the first time in JEE, there was a recounciling and I got admitted to JIS College of Engineering, Kalyani. Later by chance I got her number and phoned her. She came as cheerful and told me she will meet in weekends and she was staying in a hostel. We meet in a place on that weekends and she conveyed that she was in real love now. I showed her that I am happy hearing that but I was broken in pieces. After hearing that I felt that I had lost her.
I concentrated more on studies and extracurricular activities to forget her. But she still holds a special place in my heart. But new college friends, new studies, orkut friends and above all my mother & didi made my life really a joyful world. So, a hearty thanks to all of you.
After three years she met me on orkut and told that she is not getting well with her boyfriend. We talked about that over phone and she told me she wanted to continue our friendship to again back to her normal life. But I don’t want her anymore in my life and so I proposed her straight on orkut. She was aback and told that she can’t take any decisions right now. We meet on that same place on Mahalaya and she told me she had resolved the problem with her boyfriend. We decided that it will be last meeting and told me that I deserved a better girl in my life than her. But I don’t believe it.
Though I am ready to get leg pulled by my friends but I don’t want to disclose her name as she is now happily enjoying her life with her boy friend.
Thank you to her for making my life and also to my mother and didi for their full supports. And also my all friends.
I don’t miss her anymore.
I forgot to tell many things but all those are not necessary.
